Nobody knows how much I suffered last few months. I have seen the most vulnerable version of me and I realize that it took everything in me to survive from my silent battles.
I almost gave up and almost lost myself because I was hurting a lot. Nobody really knows how many times I pulled myself together just to survive and for that I am so proud of myself for being here.
I have seen the saddest version of me. The most wasted and devastated, but despite of that I have learned that I am a strong person. I also learned to forgive myself for letting myself settle for less than what I truly deserved. I have learned a lot while I was hurting.
Even though I have seen the worst version of me, I still learned to accept and appreciate myself. This may be the most painful year for me, but at least I survived and learned a lot.
My battles are not over yet. Maybe worst are yet to come. Maybe I reach a point where I can’t survive anymore. But let’s be positive, shall we? Let things happen, then we’ll figure out a solution. As we always have.